Scattered . . .

I came up with a various titles for thie blog, but none seemed right.  So I decided to call this blog, “Shame on Me.”

Yesterday I got a text from an unexpected number saying how this person loved me and knew these were not said enough.  I am like ok, who is this.  My last phone died on me and so I do not have any numbers for certain friends and family members.  So I texted bac, who is this.  It was from my astranged biological father, who replied dad. 

After an hour of coaching by various friends and staff members, I get up the courage to talk to him last night.  It seems it was a mass email that he sent several people.  To make matters even worse, I find out that my bio-father came to Atlanta to see my stepbrother play basketball.  It was actually the same game that I went to see with a good friend of mine.  I can’t trully say how I feel in words that will express it, because then my blog woutld be deleted. 

The mild version, I have not spoken to him since May 2006, I will not dare speak to him again.  I do not need him in my life, thanks for the sperm.  But whatever, he is dead to me.  And if my sister is reading this, I am sorry you have to read this but I have never known him like you have.  Call me, I’ll explain.

 This my first piece that I have started in the series of self portraits.  It represents how I feel about things, free.  Hence the no clothes.

I got this meme from http://journey-woman.blogspot.com.
1. Butterbeer or pumpkin juice?
Butterbeer!  Think rootbeer, but with the butterscotch taste.

2. What House would you most likely (or want to) be in in Hogwarts?
I think I am fine with Hufflepuff, which is the house I was sorted into.

3. If you were an animagus, what animal would you turn into?
wolf, not a werewolf.  But a regular white haired wolf.

4. What character do you empathize with, or resemble best?
Ron, because it has to be hard on him being the youngest in his family and living in Harry Potters shadow.  I think that he will end up with more success than any of us realize.

5. What position do you play at Quidditch?
I would rather watch.

6. Which teacher is your favorite?
Moody imposter, he was fun and blunt.  Loved it.

7. Any Harry Potter 7 predictions?
Read my past blogs!!!  Snape is a good and will die for Harry.  One of the twins will die or both.  Lupin is gone to.  Wormtail dies saving Harry.  Ginny gets wounded.  Malfoy gets seriously injured.  Petunia has a bigger role in the book, hopefully we will find out what magical family she and Lily comes from.  I think someone from Harry’s father side will come out.

Meme
- Bold all of the following TV shows of which you’ve seen 3 or more episodes.
- Italicize a show if you’re positive you’ve seen every episode.
- Asterisk if you hatve at least one full season on tape or DVD
- If you want, add up to 3 additional shows (keep the list in alphabetical order)

24
7th Heaven
8 Simple Rules
Adam-12
Aeon Flux
ALF
Alfred Hitchcock Presents
Alias
American Idol/Pop Idol/Canadian Idol/Australian Idol/etc.
America’s Next Top Model
Angel
Are You fraid of the Dark?
Arrested Development
Babylon 5
Babylon 5: Crusade
Battlestar Galactica (the old one)
Battlestar Galactica (the new one)
</b>Baywatch
Beavis & Butthead
Beauty and the Beast
Beverly Hills 90210</b>
Blackadder
Bonanza
Bones
Bosom Buddies
Boston Public
Boston Legal
Boy Meets World
Buck Rogers in the 25th Century
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Bug Juice
Caitlin’s Way
Chappelle’s Show
Charlie’s Angels
Charmed
Cheers
Clarissa Explains It All
Columbo
Commander in Chief
Coupling
Cowboy Bebop
Crossing Jordan
CSI
CSI: Miami
CSI: NY
Curb Your Enthusiasm
Dallas
Dancing with the Stars
Danny Phantom
Dark Angel
Dark Skies
Davinci’s Inquest
Dawson’s Creek
Dead Like Me
Deadwood
Degrassi
Degrassi: The Next Generation
Designing Women
Desperate Housewives
Dharma & Greg
Dinosaurs
Different Strokes
Doctor Who (1963)
Doctor Who (2005)
Dragnet
Due South
Dresden Files
Earth 2
Emergency!
Entourage
ER
Everwood
Everybody Loves Raymond
Extreme Makeover: Home Edition
Facts of Life
Family Guy
Family Ties
Farscape
Father Ted
Fawlty Towers
Felicity
Firefly
Flash Forward
Forever Knight
Frasier
Freaks and Geeks
Friday Night Lights
Friends
Futurama
Get Smart
Gilligan’s Island
Gilmore Girls
Gomer Pyle, U.S.M.C.
Green Wing
Grey’s Anatomy
Growing Pains
Gunsmoke
Hannah Montana
Happy Days
Heroes
Highlander
Highlander: The Raven
Hogan’s Heroes
Home Improvement
Homicide: Life on the Stree
House
I Dream of Jeannie
I Love Lucy
Instant Star
Inuyasha
Invader Zim
Invasion
JAG
Jackass
Joey
John Doe
Just Shoot Me
Keen Eddie
LA Law
Laverne and Shirley
Life With Derek
Little House on the Prairie
Lizzie McGuire
Lois and Clark: The New Adventures of Superman
Lone Ranger
Lost
Lost in Space
Love, American Style
M*A*S*H
MacGyver
Malcolm in the Middle
Married… With Children
Melrose Place
Miami Vice
Miracles
Mission: Impossible
Monk
Mork & Mindy
Murphy Brown
My Life as a Dog
My So-Called Life
My Super Sweet 16
My Three Sons
My Two Dads
News Radio
NCIS
Nip/Tuck
North Shore
Numb3rs
One Tree Hill
Oz
Perry Mason
Phil of the Future
Pokemon
Power Rangers
Prison Break
Profiler
Project Runway
Psych
Quantum Leap
Queer As Folk (US)
Queer as Folk (UK)
Reading Rainbow
Red Dwarf
ReGenesis
Remington Steele
Rescue Me
Road Rules
ROME*
Roseanne
Roswell
Salute Your Shorts
Saved by the Bell
Scarecrow and Mrs King
Scooby-Doo, Where Are You?
Scrubs
Seinfeld
Six Feet Under
Sex and the City
Skins
Sliders
Slings and Arrows
Smallville
So Weird
South Park
Spaced
Spongebob Squarepants
Star Trek
Star Trek: The Next Generation
Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
Star Trek: Voyager
Star Trek: Enterprise
Stargate Atlantis
Stargate SG-1
Superman
Supernatural>
Surface
Survivor
Taxi
Teen Titans
That 70’s Show
That’s So Raven
The 4400 (barely)
The Addams Family
The Andy Griffith Show
The Apprentice
The A-Team
The Avengers
The Beverly Hillbillies
The Bionic Woman
The Brady Bunch
The Cosby Show
The Daily Show
The Days and Nights of Molly Dodd
The Dead Zone
The Dick Van Dyke Show
The Famous Jet Jackson
The Flintstones
The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air
The Golden Girls
The Honeymooners
The Invisible Man
The Jeffersons
The Jetsons
The L Word
Life on Mars
The Love Boat
The Lucille Ball Show
The Mary Tyler Moore Show
The Mighty Boosh
The Monkees
The Munsters
The Mythbusters
The O.C.
The Office (UK)
The Office (US)
The Practice
The Pretender
The Real World
The Sentinel
The Shield
The Simpsons
The Six Million Dollar Man
The Sopranos
Sports Night
The Suite Life of Zack and Cody
3rd Rock from the Sun
Third Watch
Three’s Company
Top Gear
Torchwood
The Twilight Zone
Twin Peaks
Twitch City
Two and A Half Men
Ugly Betty
Veronica Mars
The Vicar of Dibley
The Waltons
The West Wing
Whose Line is it Anyway? (US)
Whose Line is it Anyway? (UK)
Wild, Wild West
Will and Grace
Wings
Wiseguy
Without a Trace
WKRP in Cincinnati
The Wonder Years
The X-Files

This weekend is a lot.  I have too much going on.  June is just a crazy month for me anyway. 

Saturday

• pick up car from dealership
• mail off books for paperbacksawp
• get my hair done
• return my books and audiotapes to the library
• exchange my dvds at Blockbuster
• go grocery shopping
• Buy two gifts
• go to one of my best friends birthday party (that I co-planned) @ 300 (a hot new lounge, resturant, bowling alley) and then the club

Sunday

• Provide HIV Prevention Counseling @ Piedmont Park
• go to a friends college graduation party

Chapter 5: Toning Done Your Fitness Budget
It did help that I did not have a fitness budget to began with. The author did mention how to by a decent workout dvd which I will try.

Chapter 6: Snip Your Hair Care BUdget
I refuse to take the advice in this budget. My hair has to get done a minimum of three times a month. My hair is hard to keep up.Chapter 7: Makeup Myths
I learned a lot from this chapter. I did not take my grandmother seriously when she suggested washing my face with dish washing liquid, but I hear it works. Plus now I know what do as far a beauty regiment is concerned.

1. What bill do you hate paying the most?
Visa Gold- when I was in college I put a semester of tuition on that card.

2. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?
This Itlaian Resturant in Lenox mall

3. Last time you puked from drinking?
I have never.

4. When is the last time you got drunk and danced on a bar?
Only in movies.

5. Name of your first grade teacher?
Who? I don’t remember.

6. What do you really want to be doing right now?
Laying in the tub.

7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?
I wanted to be a bounty hunter for the longest, then it was doctor. No I just want to be happy.

8. How many colleges did you attend?
One.

9. Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now?
It was a button down and conservative.

10. GAS PRICES?
Lets not talk about it.

11. If you could move anywhere and take someone with you?
L.A.

12. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?
No, not again. Or is it a weekday or the weekend?

13. Last thought before going to sleep last night?
I really need to take out the trash.

14. Favorite style of underwear?
boy briefs

15. Favorite style of underwear for the opposite sex?
boxers. Any man can look sexy in boxers

16. What errand/chore do you despise?
cleaning my bedroom

17. If you didn’t have to work, would you volunteer?
Yes.

18. Get up early or sleep in?
depends on how the day before went

19. What is your favorite cartoon character?
PepperAnn

20. Favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with a girl/guy?
Can not say right now.

21. Have you found real love yet?
Yes, but it’s not romantic love. But it is still real.

22. When did you first start feeling old?
I haven’t yet.

23. Favorite 80’s movie?
Pretty in Pink

24. Your favorite lunch meat?
liverloaf

25. What do you get every time you go into Sam’s Club?
I do not have an account

26. Beach or lake?
beach

27. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual?
noooooo

28. How many people do you stalk on livejournal?
None

29. Favorite guilty pleasure?
besides carbs

30. Favorite movie you wouldn’t want anyone to find out about?
I don;t have any

31. What’s your drink?
root beer.

32. Cowboys or Indians?
Indians.

33. Cops or Robbers?
Cops.

34. Who from high school would you like to run into?
None. It’s over, lets move on.

35. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now?
q100

36. Norm or Cliff?
What?????

37. The Cosby Show or the Simpsons?
Neither

38. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back?
Telling the guy that I liked someone else, bad move very bad move.

39. Do you like the person who sits directly across from you at work?
I work in a cubical

40. If you could get away with it, who would you kill?
Nobody

41. What famous person(s) would you like to party with?
Nicole Richie

42. What famous person would you like to sleep with?
Benjamin Bratt

43. Have you ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?
NO

44. Last book you read for real?
City Chic

45. Do you have a teddy bear?
Yes, my ex gave him to me. He is dressed up like a doctor.

46. Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth?
motels

47. Somewhere in California you’ve never been and would like to go?
L.A

48. Do you go to church?
No

49. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship?
Relationship.

50. Just how OLD are you?
25

Holly came over on Saturday and we went over what we are going to do for the Harry Potter Party.  I am so excited about this party.  It is going to be so great, even though my one and only ex is going to be there.  I do not care.  I am delighted.  We decided that every one is going to bring stuff for the meal (which is Mexican) and that everyone will bring a prize for the contest we are having.  We are having best wand, best costume, and most house pride.  We are also going to play a jelly bean guessing game, trivia game, and who is most obessessed game.  It is going to totally rock, yes I said totally and rock.  We are also making butterbeer, cream soda with butterscotch flavoring (It should be interesting).  I will try and post pics after the party.

I came across City Chicby Nina Willdorf by accident, I looked in up on Amazon and decided to purchase it.

Chapter 1: Lighting
This chapter talks about lighting your apartment. You can light it was paint or different types of light. I liked the fact that she covered my worries about painting an apartment that is rented. The author also talked about the different types of bulbs, which was interesting. I never thought about the different types of light bulbs that are offered, nor the light each one provides a room.

Chapter 2: Furnish for Less
Discussions of schemes for the apartment was introduction to the chapter. None of which fitted me, I could have gone for more. Willdorf covers basic design schemes for an apartment and also covers what furniture to splurge and save on.

Chapter 3: Free Finds You Can Pick Up On the Street
This chapter basically goes over curb side finds. It was interesting, but this chapter was not for me.