Let me just say this up front, I work with a bunch of gay black men. I love men, even the gay ones. But this group is giving me a run for my money. I am also happy to say I got a raise, even though I do not think it was deserved. I think maybe in the past it was, but I have cut down on my duties. I am feeling burnt out and have not been running at full capacity for a long time. I am numb to work now. I have been working fulltime for 2 years (as of June 21, 2007) at this job. I love educating the community on a big public health issues such as HIV, but this job is draining me.
I love the people. I love my clients to no end. I love the community to no end; it’s just that I feel smothered by work. Sometimes I do not think that I can to enough or am doing enough. The realm of my job is more than I can handle and the means for the intervention I work in just is not there.
