Scattered . . .

Job: Prevention Specialist (CTR)
What you like best about your job: I serve the people and not some big capitalist corporation
Born: 1982, North Jackson ‘Bama
Education: BA in Sociology concentration in sexuality and Gender (Georgia State University)
Places lived: Columbus, GA and Atlanta, GA
Favorite candle: Egg nog
Favorite place to shop: Target
Last good movie: Sabrina
Likes to watch: LaBig Brother 8, Cold Case, All My Children
Favorite pig out food: ice cream, french fries, cakes, cookies
Favorite music or artist: Pop
Person you admire: Veronica Chambers
Three words that describe you: artistic, witty, and krazy
Likes to do in your spare time: draw and read and write
If I’ve learned something in life, it is: BE true to yourself

I saw this one Slice of Pinks Blog and I thought it was cool. She is having readers post questions and she’ll answer them. I promise I will answer all questions posted on my blog. Ok the first 25 (since I am 25). So any personal or non personal questions I will answer.

My second day of the challenge my intention is Communication.  I tend to have delayed interpersonal skills and be socially akward.  My goals for today is:

1. Do everything on my web to do list.

• www.sparkspeople.com
• www.target.com
• myspace.com
• day 2 challenge
• find out what the book club book is for August 2007
• buxfer.com
• chinese laundry shoes
• khols.com

1. Observe two people’s conversation for 15 mintues- to help with my communication skills.
2. practice active listening
3. find another social group to join
4. find a penpal

4 Restaurants I want to TRY!!!!!!!

1. Figo

2. Atlanta Cupcake Factory

3. Asahi Japanese Steak & Sushi

4. Across the Street (Mexican Restuarant)

“To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you.” - Lewis B. Smedes

“It’s easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend.” – William Blake

“Forgiveness is me giving up my right to hurt you for hurting me” – Anonymous

I chose forgiveness because I am mad at a particular person. This person was my best friend and we talked about everything. I opened up myself more to this person than I have to anyone. This person just shut me out of his life. It felt like I was standing in an archway and the door slammed in my face, not only did the door slam in my face but I stayed at the door. Yes, I stayed and pleaded out to this person and the person disregarded that. After days of pleading and trying to reach out to this person I gave up. I have to see this person five days a week, luckily I do not have to interact with this person. But I am holding on to the anger I have for this person. Because I believe this person should hurt the same way I hurt. Only God knows how much I am truly hurt, only God. To move on, I need to forgive this person and myself. I need to forgive him, because he obviously going through something that I just cannot phantom. I need to forgive myself for wanting to hurt and punish this person because this person helps to me to bring out the worst me. The me that wants him to crumble and grabble at my feet. These are characteristics I do not want to show of myself. I have to give up my right to hurt him for hurting me. It’s hard and it feels strange, but I think I have made a big step forward.

This morning I came across an article called,”For Twenty-Something’s, Life is like the Cheesecake Factory” by Christine Hassler. It was a really good article, making a comparision of cheesecake to life. The over all point was that “the twenty something experience is full of limitless options and choices with no guarntees and constant opportunities for comparison.”

So what do you do when you are faced with so many options?

1) You don’t have to read the entire menu

You need to ask yourself three questions: 1. Where do you want to live? 2. Who do I know whose job sounds interesting and appealing? 3. What industry is something that I am interested in reading about in my spare time?

2) Decide on your order

Resist asking for others opinions and remember that it is all about you.

3) Don’t compare your dish to others.

Everyone has a different path

4) Enjoy your meal

Sometimes you have to get a job that is not really you to get one later on that is you.

On a scale of one to ten, the book for me was a ten. I thought that it was going to be tedious to get threw, but it wasn’t. The characters did not do anything out of character. Warning for some who have not read the book this post will be a spoiler. So tune out now. Here are my notes about book seven:

Snape and Lily BFF (I could see it, I thought it explained a lot)

I cannot believe that Volde did not figure out Snape

HP was a type of Horcux (spelled wrong sorry)

Rosie, Hugo, Albus Severus, James, and Lilly (I cannot believe Ginny let Harry name the kids)

Deathly Hallows

I yearned more for Harry’s mother and father’s histories

Tonks dying was unexpected for me

Was this not Dumbledore and the Deathly Hallows?????

Newts and Occupations anyone?

Kudos to Neville (Herbology Professor and Nagini killer)

Told you guys about lupin and one of the twins

Harry eyes (I still missed the connection? I know they are like his mothers. I am guessing that the eyes are the window to the soul. His mother, little Al, and him have the same kindred spirit?)

This is a list of stuff that I am ashamed of:

• Trying to eat an ice cream seductively and failing miserable.  Even little squirrels look mortified.
• Not having a budget.
• Being too nice!!!  Yeah I said it, I want some edge to me.
• Wanting to be friends with someone who thinks that I am similar to an amoeba.
• Romanticizing about someone who just will never be interested. 
• Obviously liking rejection.  (see previous two bullets)
• Wanting the world to want me.  Hey who doesn’t.
• Going to retrieve my Harry Potter book at Midnight tomorrow.
• Being messy (not figuratively)
• sleeping in a twin bed
• Staying at home with my mother and brother
• How enough is never enough
• When my emotions flare I am manic
• being caught up on other people’s opinions
• I somewhat believe in the American Ideology
• admitting half the things on this list

Things that I am not ashamed of:

• my love for life
• I devote myself to making the world a better place
• being artistic and creative
• I am a major planner
• I consider the details
• I like the fact that I over-analyze
•  I read self help books for the fun of it
• I do prevention work in the public health sector
• I’m one tough cookie
• If I fall eight times, I’ll get up nine

Questions featured in UNDER WRAPS, page 154 of Elle Magazine.

Describe your style. I would love to say sophisticated, glamorous, sultry, and seductive. But it is more like quirky, plain (classic) and comfortable. I like girl casual.

Who rules in your closet? Almost anything in my size from Target. They have really great designers working for them. It’s just so amazing that they put out such

What’s in your bag? Book light, chocolate honey lip gloss (Warm Spirit), Comb, work journal, pens (gel), Pink glitter compact, wallet, checkbook

Best bargain ever? 85 % off everything at Express

Who’s your favorite artist? I am still looking for one.

Any good luck charms? NO. I do not believe in good luck charms.

Whose closet would you like to raid? J-Lo’s. She dresses so nice most of them time.

Signature scent? Smelling edible. Cookies or fruit.

Vacation destination? Paris or Japan in 2008. I am going to save and take on a hefty vacation.

What are you currently reading? Elle and Essence magazine. Saturday I will be reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.

What you would never be caught dead wearing? Bright colors!!!! I am a little to plain Jane.

Signature accessory? Nothing particular.

Who makes your best dressed list? J-Lo, Michelle Trachtewhater, Zoe Salanda

The best outfit you ever wore? I like jeans and high heels, but I have never worn such an outfit.

First big fashion purchase? Dooney and Burke (A friend purchased it for me)

What are you wearing right now? Purple polo with brown pants.