Scattered . . .

Tested a couple of people

Started doing my inservice for the new testing form

worried about MPEP

cleaned my office

1. Where did you begin 2007? In bed with a less than questionable man. My friend of mine who is so not into me, because he likes men too.

2. Did you have to go to the hospital? I think I did go to get a piece of light bulb out of my foot.

3. Did you have any encounters with the police? Yes. I got a ticket this year in Cobb County.

4. Where did you go on vacation? I went to Savannah with my Aunt.

5. What did you purchase that was over $500? My laptop which is MIA at the moment.

6. Did you know anybody who got married? No. Only people who got married the year before.

7. What sporting events did you attend? None

8. What concerts/shows did you go to? None!

9. Where do you live now? Stone Mountain, Georgia

10. Describe your birthday: Painful. I didn’t get to do what I wanted and I got news that I have cysts on my ovaries.

11. What’s the one thing you thought you would never do, but did in 2007? Go to the doctor repeatedly.

12. What’s something you learned about yourself? I am a perfectionist and I care about what others think way to much.

13. Any new additions to your family? No.

14. What was your best month? Nothing stands out.

15. What music will you remember 2007 by? “Bubbly” “Will you count me in?”

16. Made new friends? No.

17. Favorite night out? I didn’t have any that just jumped at me/

18. Any regrets? That I just didn’t go for it

19. What do you want to change in 2008? Be more confident and live more. And save more.

20. Overall, how would you rate this year? On a 1-10 scale, a three.

21. Other than home, where did you spend most of your time? At work

22. Change your hairstyle? Yes I grew my hair out and then chopped it off.

23. Buy a new car? No.

24. Any car accidents? Yes. Hit and run with a man who stole a car.

25. How old did you turn this year? 25

26. Do you have a New Year’s resolution? See the 2008 resolutions page.

27. Do anything embarrassing? NO.

28. Be honest - did you watch American Idol? No

29. Start a new hobby? kickball

30. Will you be happy to see 2007 go? Yes. The party was over. I am going to enjoy life in 2008.

31. Been naughty or nice? Always naughty sprinkled with nice.

What are five words you would use to describe you?
Intense, artistic, moody, introvert, and dramatic

What are five words you hope others would use to describe you?
Hopeful, creative, thoughtful, witty, and quirky

Do you bottle things up or let it all hang out?
Some of both. I think it depends on what it is.

What is the best piece of advice you have ever received?
Be yourself, everything stems off of that.

What drives you, fear or desire?
Desire. I think if I desire to have something I go for it more. Fear makes me shut down.

What is your biggest regret thus far?
Really, not caring what people think. It holds me back, you (or me) should not let anyone have that much power over you.

You wake up at 2:00AM, what is on your mind?
Why am I up again? Aaaawwwwww

How many times have you been in love?
Never, but I hope to fall head over heels for myself. Not in a vain way though,

How do you cope with rejection?
Not well, I tend to dwell on rejection.

What inspires you in the morning?
Right now a paycheck

What makes you Angry?
Not having my own space.

What does happiness mean to you?
Happiness is being in control of yourself and responsible for your joy.

Are you a good liar?
When I want to be.

What do you hope happens when we die?
Whatever happens happens. Okay, maybe that was a sucker answer. I want to go to heaven. My heaven would be bliss with no worries or stresses. And mile high hot fudge sundaes, cabana boys, and a nice figure.

What is the meaning of life?
The meaning of life is to live. Don’t be afraid of your freedom and liberates, enjoy them.

Tired

Worried

Want to sleep

Wants some nookie (from a guy who loves me)

Desperate

Afraid

Relieved (that I am not censoring myself, because I worry about what people think)

1.       She asks what your definition of True Love is:  I think true love is kind, patient, and enduring.  True love is playful and can be serious.

2.       Who do you admire and why?  Right now no one.  For one I do not get out enough to admire anyone.  Second, I am beginning to believe in people again.  Finally I accept everyone makes mistakes, including me.  In time I will have a mentor or someone that I admire.

Did I follow my life still changes (resolutions) that I made for 2007?  Let’s see:

What do I want out of 2007?

• Development of a nice financial portfolio

If developing a financial portfolio means putting $100.00 a month in my 401K.

• Tackle Debt

I did.  I paid off two credit cards.  I am very proud of myself. J

• Lose weight (for real yall)

It’s been an interesting year with my weight.  I actually gained weight, but I am happy with it.  Because a lot of it is the cysts, so I will resolved that in 2008.

• Find my passion (even though I realize it is ever changing)

Passion is ever changing.  I know myself better now.  And I think I know other people better now.

• Get into Graduate School

I’ve made baby steps.  People are saying that I really don’t want to go to graduate school, but I do.

• Spend time with people I care about (my godson, grandparents, my sister, my brother, my mom, my auntie, etc

Yeah, this fell to the way side.  I am devoting more time to people who are pro-Tashya though.  Some people don’t care regardless.

So far it’s been a stressful morning.

- A co worker/friend/my rock’s mother had a heart attack last night and he is on his way to South Carolina.  My best judgement says prepare for the worst, hope for the best.  All I can do it pray.  This man really really really loves his mother.  His greatest fear is losing his mother.  When I didn’t see his car in the parking lot at work I knew something had happened.

- His jerky client.  His client cursed at me, when I had to call and cancel his appointment.  Yes, honey.  It took all she wrote for me not to set it off in this camp.

- Me.  I don’t want this to shape the rest of my day.  I want to be happy and cheerful.  I want the day to go by smoothly.  :)  I do know what I want does not matter at the moment.  But writing it all out helps.

Tashya took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!“Feels that there is little prospect of achieving h…” Click here to read the rest of the results.

Your Existing Situation

Feels obstructed in her desires and prevented from obtaining the things she regards as essential.

Your Stress Sources

Feels that life has far more to offer and that there are still important things to be achieved–that life must be experienced to the fullest. As a result, she pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity that will not let go of things. Becomes deeply involved and runs the risk of being unable to view things with sufficient objectivity, or calmly enough; is therefore in danger of becoming agitated and of exhausting her nervous energy. Cannot leave things alone and feels she can only be at peace when she has finally reached her goal.

Your Restrained Characteristics

Believes that she is not receiving her share–that she is neither properly understood or adequately appreciated. Feels that she is being compelled to conform, and close relationships leave her without any sense of emotional involvement.Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Sensitive and sentimental, but conceals this from all except those very close to him.

Your Desired Objective

Feels that there is little prospect of achieving her hopes and therefore surrenders herself to a life of sensuous ease, free from any problems.

Your Actual Problem

The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants increases her need for security and freedom from conflict. Is therefore seeking stability and an environment in which she can relax.

City or suburbs?  Dawling I love you, but give me Park Avenue.  The “city” , I always want to have something to do or some where to go.

Loft or house with picket white fence?  I’d rather have a brown stone or townhouse.

flip flops or sneakers?  Sneakers

Coffee or tea?  COFFEEEEEE

In college I had an ideal of what I wanted to do.  Before college I wanted to be a bounty hunter.  For years my grandparents were scared.  Then once I picked a major in college I decided to be a cardiologist because I wanted to fix hearts literally.  After my med school dreams went up in smoke, because I didn’t believe in myself and my grades were awful, I decided to be a sociology professor.  The dream was good while I was in college, but once I got out into the world I found sociology professors far and few between.  My first professional job was as a program assistant/receptionist at an AIDS service organization, within a year I got promoted to Prevention Specialist (Counseling, Testing, and referrals).  Whatever I do I am going to give back to the community.  I find myself not interested in HIV Prevention.  For me it’s too narrow and my work is becoming mechanical.  I want to do something with more creativity. I think that’s why I have been putting off graduate school. First I wanted a Masters in Public Administration, now it’s Public Health.  What do I really want to do?  I don’t mind paperwork, but I do not want to be swamped in paperwork.  I know whatever it is, it has to keep me learning and engage me.  HIV does not engage me.  I want set hours where I see people; I have clients constantly disrupting my work and train of thought.  I just really have some soul searching to do.  Because really I don’t know what I want to do.  Or maybe I do know and I’m afraid to go after it.