Scattered . . .

I went to the doctor and I have one big cyst on my ovary.  She says it’s big but she doesn’t want to put me on bed rest.  Yet I am not to do any vigorous activities (i.e. run a marathon). I am to go back in six weeks and get another ultrasound (which was hilarious). 

work was blah….  will explain later

I decided to have my ultrasound Friday.  I am scared because it will determine what the next step is with the cysts.  I am filled with cysts, which sounds disgusting.  But I am over it.  I have go and be a big girl now.  I want children and may have to decided whether to have them now or never.  But that’s okay, because I can deal.  Whatever life throws at me I can dodge or get hit or figure out what I want to do.  I will keep you posted.

• I want to get into graduate school
• I want a job where I can grow professionally
• I want to move out of my mother’s house
• I want to be more confident
• I want to be understood
• I want to develop more interpersonal skills
• I want to feel inspired everyday
• I want romance and passion with a man
• I want to unload all this burden

I saw these at the store and I had to try them. 

The Skittles were not as bad as I thought they were going to be.  They did satisfy my craving for chocolate.  Flavors of the Skittles include:

Smores

Vanilla

Chocolate Pudding

Brownie Batter

Chocolate Caramel

My plans for today include:

• Making a schedule for my graduate school applications
• seeing a movie
• getting coffee with me myself and I
• finishing my career portfolio

• got my hair did (I have recieved many compliments on it already).
• working on bubble sheets for work (yes on a Sat)
• making major life decisions
• facing the world (I am a grown up now)
• getting over myself
• reading up on socialism

writing everyday has forced me to really look at myself and the direction I would like my life to take.  I dislike writing about stuff that is drama filled and negative.  I am going to write about more things that are positive.  And I am going to take steps so my life can go the way I want it to go.

- I have two book reviews to post

Have you ever known what you needed to do but couldn’t do it?  I hope I find the courage to do everything I dream of doing and more.

This is concerning meeting men and work. 

I am speechless again.

Work was eventful.

I am going to barnes and noble tonight.

I am going to try and straighten up my room.  Ok I am going to straignthen up my room.

I decided to stop reading Black Pain (It was depressing)