Scattered . . .

8 Things You Are Passionate About:

1. Public Health
2. The welfare of women
3. Self-Development
4. Sociology
5. My Ipod (sad but true)
6. Fairness (including equal rights)
7. The safety of others
8. Justice
9. Art
10. Having a purpose

8 Things You Are Good At:

1. Sketching
2. Writing
3. Listing
4. Analyzing
5. Researching
6. Planning
7. Caring
8. Drawing Conclusions (So 5th grade of me)
9. Exploring
10. Creating

8 Things You Want To Do Before You Die:

1. Travel more (Japan and Paris, France)
2. Have a baby
3. Move out of my mothers house
4. Publish a book
5. Act in a Play
6. Get mo degrees (Masters, RN, and Docorates)
7. Have an art showing
8. Find a career I love and that I am good at
9. Be assertive in everything
10. Have a non profit

I have this fear.  What if nothing is wrong with me and it’s all in my head. I went to the doctors last week.  Which sucked.  She des not know what is wrong with me.  At least she is honest.  All I know is I want to lose weight.  But I wonder if anything is wrong with me.  The symptoms come and go.  What if they aren’t symptoms at all? 

My laptop is back and in action.  I’d like to give my brother some credit for putting in the new harddrive.

• Gift cards (Walmart, Target, Old Navy, Itunes, Barnes and Noble)
• Magazine Subscriptions (Essesnce, Body and Soul, Cosmo, Instyle, Elle, Marie Clarie)
• Tote bag
• Pedicure
• wallet
• Blank books with no lines
• art supplies
• dinner (duck, crispy shrimp, and waffles)
• Birthday Cake

I am reevaluating myself, because when I looks t the things I was writing about two years ago it’s the same things I am writing about today.  So I am taking an intermission on ranting and raving.  This too is something I have done before, BUt I need to focus on making me happy and living my life.

I was talking about listening to other people in the last post, I also need to listen to myself too.

It has come up a lot.  Listening is a major part of my job. But along the way I lost effective listening outside of HIV Prevention Counseling and Testing.  When in conversations with friends it’s mostly about me.  Everything relates back to me.  I have to give that up and realize listening to people is not self sacrificing my own opinions and attributes.  Listening  is telling the person i understand them and I care about what they are saying. 

I decided to start my 100 Day Challenge Season 2 today.

“We have two ears and only one tongue in order that we may hear more and speak less.”
Diogenes Laertius

I feel like I cannot breathe at work.  I am afraid to make mistakes (I think mistakes makes you a stronger employee and person).  I have to be prefect.  But the more I try to be prefect the more things began to unravel.  Someone came for me in a meeting and I push back hard.

 How am I suppoer to breath with no air?

GREEK

• Rusty tried to get back with his girlfriend, but she had already moved on.
• I am going to love the Cappie, Rebecca, and Caseyl long circle
• Does Casey really want her ex back? Which ex?  (Gasp)
• Who does not like Rebecca Logan?

Girlicious

• Here are my top picks for the group: Nichole, Tiffane, and Carrie

The Hills

• Brody knew he was LCs
• LC get over Brody, Heidi, and Spencer
• Spencer get off of Heidi’s dick, let her breathe
• Heidi I hope you have grown up
• Paris seemed like a wasted trip

• worried about finances
• rethinking finance strategy for 2008
• calculating the Vegas trip
• making a list of what to bring to Vegas
• making a list of things to do before I leave
• remembering what to ask my doctor
• trying to get all my work done
• loving the new shoes at target
• wondering when flip flops started costing so much