Scattered . . .

I am planning the best summer ever,  I am going to be the best me ever.  And I am going to have fun.  No more tense girly woman.  Life is too short.

Tonight I have plans to go to a birthday dinner for a guy at work.  It has promise.  The resturant is decent and the company isn’t too shabby.

Sex and the City was awesome last night.  I wish I would have dressed up and made a big thang out of it.

My phone is off due to me not paying the bill.  It’s a huge bill, like five hundred all together.  Crazy.  More than my car payment.  But I am waiting for my check from the dealership to turn it back on.  I get paid on Wednesday which could make for it coming back on too.  And I have to pay my citation for failure to yield.  This from a girl who was told during her drivers test that she waited for other people too much. 

I also found a summer fling.  I am excited by the prospects.

I am no longer going to be a socially awkward or a wallflower.  I am painting the town pink this summer.  I think I have come up with some good things.

still looking for suggestions.

Hey everyone

I am looking to get out of my comfort zone this summer so I am taking suggestions for activities.  I will pick twenty five suggestions from readers on what I should do this summer.  Throughout the summer I will keep you guys posted. 

Post your suggestion as a comment please!!

I was reading up on how to go green.  And I came across a tip for women’s care, which suggested using a menstrual cup.  I have never heard of a menstrual cup before and have decided to investigate.  Here are some things I learned:

• It goes inside and not outside
• You can wear it longer than a tampon/pad
• may cause leakage (yikes)
• Can use them during oral sex but not vaginal

I just found this interesting.  I suggested if you are interested do your own research.

Everyone has things that they are not proud of.  My things are frequently talked about on this blog.  Have you ever found yourself running from some feeling you have only to have it be ahead of you.  I have these feeling and I am trying to shut them down but they switch keeps getting switched on.  I am coping the best way i can. 

• mother got offended when i gave her money
• over heard my mother on the phone saying that she should kick us out and we don’t pay rent
• was mad about both situations
• Decided not to go out with family for breakfast because of the conversation
• Aunt highly suggeseted i go and i went with her
• Saw the Dreams lose to the Sparks
• mother made me mad by asking me where i was going.  I was being nonchalant and she got mad.  My Aunt told her it was not that serious.

In summary of the days events I think it would be best if I move.  I cannot take all this mellow drama.  I already feel bad about living at home and I am offering to pay some kind of rent but it’s crazy.  Now I have a car note.  I still think I am going to look for a roommate for the Fall.  I am still applying to grad school so hopefully I will only need a year lease.

Advice and comments always welcomed.

• streaked my hair a dark red
• bought things for a friends baby shower
• played kick ball with the clients of empowerment
• ate four homemade cupcakes
• ate at vinocity (love their hot potato salad)
• rested

I bought a car.  2002 Honda Acccord LX.

Congratulate me.

With in the next week:

• I will have a car
• I will have a graduate school timeline
• I will have a finished career portfolio