I saw an article in Marie Claire tonight about New Years Eve. There have been many new Years eve that came to mine, for instance the one where there was a game night and another at a gay strip club. I’ve had dull nights and really exciting nights. The article made me wonder what night I will have this New Years EVE. I don’t have a man and my BFF lives in North Carolina with her husband and daughter. This is no romantic comedy by any means. I do not want to be someone at midnight with someone I met recently. And I don’t want a girls night out, because I don’t have “girls’ and I don’t want to be out with a bunch of girls doing something stupid. I don’t want to be in the same place I was last year, which was at work. I really don’t know what to do.
I want to be alone but I think I want to be alone a lot. Being alone is not a good place to be. I remember in one of my favorite movies the characters said being alone is only a place to start. When am I going to get passed the alone stage of my life?
I hope New Years Eve does not set the precedence for 2013. Maybe being alone is a good idea, being alone will give me a little piece. I know I’ll be missing some fun, but I don’t want to go to the club, house party, church, or anywhere else.