I would like to start off with, please let me email me tips and suggestions because I really am in a bind.
I am head over heels for this guy. He is my friend, a really good friend. He has seen me past my prime. And I love him, even his mistakes and blemishes. I love him. I know nothing can happen between us, but damn I want it to. Which I need to get over. Every time I think feelings are gone, they come back stronger. A co worker of mine seem to think it’s because I’m in need of some bump and grind. Hell, I don’t know what it is. I use to daydream about this person and stop myself because I thought yuck he’s like a brother to me. Now I don’t stop myself I let the fantasy continue.
Yes I know he knows how I feel about him. Anytime I like someone I become a 12 year old school girl, but at twelve I think I was more poised. I get all dreamy eyed and latch on to the man’s every word. I adore him. Funny thing is, I don’t put him above the clouds. I know he’s not perfect and I accept that. I live for ways to make him bigger than life, but there aren’t any. I love him, for him. Even if there was a straight guy out there with the same qualities as him they wouldn’t be him. Only he could be him.
Sometimes I think that’s it, because I already know the out come of him and me. There is none!!!! He is not for me. We look at the same guys for goodness sake.
As I stated at beginning, suggestions and advice please.