I Just Don’t Know

I had a dream that I killed someone and up their remains under the desk in my room.  Me and me looked up this dream in the dream dictionary.  Of course it didn’t mean I was going to kill someone it meant a part of me was going.  A part of me that I didn’t like was being killed.  Which I sort of liked.  I don’t want to be a certain person and I am not going to be that person any more.  I don’t want to be stepped on or pushed around.  I don’t want to be the person who people think they need to lead, because I have my own compass and can find my own direction.  Other people’s direction isn’t that great.

I talked to bestie and she says that it isn’t fair that I switch up.  She said it’s great that I am evolving but I shouldn’t expect people to just know and accept the change.  I can’t just change the script when it was already confirmed.

On another note, there are lots of other things still up in the air.  I don’t know what to do with myself.

  • I don’t think I want to drive anymore.  I can’t afford to get into another accident.
  • My new contacts are bothering me to no end.  I feel like a vampire in them.
  • I think I’m parting ways with more friends than I can handle.

I’ve been praying a lot.  In the end all I can do is have faith

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One response to “I Just Don’t Know

  1. sounds like your looking to get ‘clarity’ back in your life…it’s within you. you’ve never lost it to begin with.

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