I had a dream that I killed someone and up their remains under the desk in my room. Me and me looked up this dream in the dream dictionary. Of course it didn’t mean I was going to kill someone it meant a part of me was going. A part of me that I didn’t like was being killed. Which I sort of liked. I don’t want to be a certain person and I am not going to be that person any more. I don’t want to be stepped on or pushed around. I don’t want to be the person who people think they need to lead, because I have my own compass and can find my own direction. Other people’s direction isn’t that great.
I talked to bestie and she says that it isn’t fair that I switch up. She said it’s great that I am evolving but I shouldn’t expect people to just know and accept the change. I can’t just change the script when it was already confirmed.
On another note, there are lots of other things still up in the air. I don’t know what to do with myself.
- I don’t think I want to drive anymore. I can’t afford to get into another accident.
- My new contacts are bothering me to no end. I feel like a vampire in them.
- I think I’m parting ways with more friends than I can handle.
I’ve been praying a lot. In the end all I can do is have faith