Simple answer to a deep question. I’m not proud or secure with myself, so no I am not proud. I’m a planner and I didn’t plan for this life. This is not the life I spent working for. I’m trying to dig myself out of a hole but I can’t see the light or anything to say I getting close to being out.
To make matters worse I don’t measure up to my own expectations. I expect myself to have a fulltime job. To be married to a wonderful man and a child or expecting a child. Instead reality is that I’m living with mother while working part-time at f-ing Wal-Mart. Not being able to pay all my bills. Afraid I’m not get good enough for this horny guy at work.