- My brother is getting things in order to leave. He’s working my nerves, acting like a baby. He needs to take life by the reins. Hell, I need to take life by the reins. I just think he’s running from something only to run into something worse. He owes me $78 dollars, which I want now!
- BFF and me have been distant for a while, which I guess happens in time with friendships. She’s going through a life changing struggle, which is what I gathered. She’s been seeing this guy who makes her feel all the things her husband does not. She wants to sleep with him (the guy who is not her husband). I thinker cheaters are cheaters. I think she wants me to be ok with it if she does. And I am not ok with cheating. Period. So it’s whatever.
- Feeling a lot better. Gotta go to work tomorrow, which is blah. I’m thinking about taking the management test, which somewhat equals defeat to me. I have so much angst about it, but oh well I’m not getting hired. I have always equaled what I did to my self-worth. And so I feel low about what I am going to do. 😦
- I just feel out of the loop lately. LOL. It’s funny, I am up on current events. But I guess I mean life, hell I know I mean life. Like I am supposed to be married with a child. Damn, the recession! Like that is to blame for how I feel. It isn’t. I’m losing it.
- School start next week which will take my mind off of things. I’ll have a lot less time to think about everything. blah.