I am sad because I don’t have a “good” job. A job where I can pay all my current bills and live on my own. When I did have a “good” job I was worried about other things. I am so worn out and I feel like I have a long way to go. My BFF says be positive, but I am afraid to be positive because nothing has happened yet. And I think being positive won’t change things. I’ll just be in the same situation with a positive attitude.
I’ve decided to work on my confidence. It’s a big thing that I lack. My confidence comes out in spurts. It doesn’t come out in fight or flight situations, even thought I think it should. My confidence goes on vacation about 345 days out of the year. I need confidence every day. I decided in 2011 it’s the one thing I’m really going to work on. I think confidence in myself will help me score the job after interviews.
I feel like the whole world is in on a joke that I’ll never get. I feel like I’m engulfed with people’s opinions on me. I want approval, but I know I only need to approve of myself.