Yep, still thinking about the past. Why am I such a dweller? I am not just thinking about the big paycheck, I’m thinking about people too. I am thinking about hanging out and discovering new restuarnats and visiting favorites.
I know things change for a reason, but change sucks at times. I feel lost and I have been feeling that way for a long times. I need a big change. And I’m tired of people saying your times will come. And your path is different. My whole life all I wanted to do was fit in. Even among my friends I stick out like a sore thumb.
My Bestie is married to a good guy and they are expecting their first child this Spring. I love her like a sister and I am happy for her. I just wish I was in the same place as her.
I’m like the last single girl and I am fat. I cannot focus on anything and my life is in a continual rut.