I am totally everywhere. I keep thinking about where am I. What am I doing? My life is passing me by.
I’m 30. I’m not even thirty, I’m 31. Eeek, I almost forgot.
Living at home working at the megacenter. I don’t know how to move forward. I am stuck!!!! And I feel I suck. I am sucking at life. Moving out would make me feel better but I don’t make anything. My checks are four hundred dollars no matter how long I work.
There is so much I want to do and I need to do. Everything is different from two years ago and two years from now everything is going to be different again. I am sitting in my bff’s dining room trying to work on my graduate school paper topic. Something that will not be due until December 2011. I just want a head start.
I also need to really get on the job hunt. I have decided not to apply to assistant jobs because I am not an assistant. I am earning a Master’s degree and that counts for something. So no, I cannot be anyone’s assistant. I also want to try to volunteer and apply to social work schools. I want to be a clinical social worker. I do not know what population I want to serve. I can tell you that I don’t want to service children. I also want to tackle group work. Maybe African-American women. I want to dabble in life coaching techniques.
This upcoming week I want to really concentrate on applying to jobs and reading chapters for class. I am determined to get two A’s this quarter. I also want to finish my vision board that I started a year ago.