Shame

This is a list of stuff that I am ashamed of:

• Trying to eat an ice cream seductively and failing miserable.  Even little squirrels look mortified.
• Not having a budget.
• Being too nice!!!  Yeah I said it, I want some edge to me.
• Wanting to be friends with someone who thinks that I am similar to an amoeba.
• Romanticizing about someone who just will never be interested. 
• Obviously liking rejection.  (see previous two bullets)
• Wanting the world to want me.  Hey who doesn’t.
• Going to retrieve my Harry Potter book at Midnight tomorrow.
• Being messy (not figuratively)
• sleeping in a twin bed
• Staying at home with my mother and brother
• How enough is never enough
• When my emotions flare I am manic
• being caught up on other people’s opinions
• I somewhat believe in the American Ideology
• admitting half the things on this list

Things that I am not ashamed of:

• my love for life
• I devote myself to making the world a better place
• being artistic and creative
• I am a major planner
• I consider the details
• I like the fact that I over-analyze
•  I read self help books for the fun of it
• I do prevention work in the public health sector
• I’m one tough cookie
• If I fall eight times, I’ll get up nine